December 7, 2011

Little Maci,

This picture is hanging on our fridge. It has been hanging there for exactly one year and I'm still amazed at the fact that this was you. A little blob swimming around in my stomach at 7 weeks old. I couldn't see eyes or arms and legs, but I did see your heartbeat. And today, I held you as you looked in the mirror at your reflection and I felt your little heartbeat under my hand. It's the most beautiful feeling in the world. So tiny and fast.

And now you have chubby little cheeks that I kiss every single day, and rolls on your thighs that I like to tickle. And when you're eating you use your tiny little hands to play with my face. You rub my cheeks and hold my chin and you sometimes pull my hair, but it still melts my heart... even if it does hurt. I LOVE that you've started to acknowledge that I'm there while you're eating. You'll be 5 months old in just 3 short days and I know that I say this every single time, but HOW? I was seriously just pregnant. I remember the day of your birth like it was yesterday (although the birth itself is a little foggy). I remember throwing up every day and peeing my pants for the 135th time. I remember taking that test and feeling like I was going to fall off the toilet when it turned positive before I even had a chance to pull my pants up. I just don't see how time can go so fast. Before you were here it seemed like time was just dragging on... and now I don't feel like I can keep up and the days are flying and I JUST WANT IT TO SLOW DOWN!!! I don't want my little girl to be 5 months old already. I just want you to stay this age for a long long time so that I can lay in bed and play with you and listen to you babble forever. I'm begging you!

Alright, I'll stop... time for what you are doing this month and some pictures!

As of now you are not rolling over. You only allow me to put you on your belly for 5 minutes, tops. BUT you are starting to move your legs when you're doing there which makes me think you'll be there in no time. I think I might pee my pants the first time you actually do it. You're also doing really well at sitting up while assisted. You do a great job for the first few seconds and then you fall forward and look like a taco. A cute taco, I might add. I already mentioned what you do with my face while you are eating... that very well could be my most favorite thing you've ever done, aside from smiling. You're laughing like crazy, and  you are madly in love with your daddy. I can tell that I am already in trouble. He doesn't even have to say anything to you and you smile at him and start talking. I thought you were a Mommy's girl!!! That's okay, you don't get to see him much, so I love that when you are with him you show him how much you love him.

I don't have weight right now but I can try to weigh you when we get home. Last month though you were 14 pounds! Your first Thanksgiving was great. We had family over at our house that we haven't seen in a few years and you did amazing for not napping much at all that day. And then that weekend we went to Nebraska to see the rest of the family. Unfortunately we didn't remember to snap a picture of you with your cousins Addison and Allie which I'm so mad about!!! We will have to get one at Christmas. Which, by the way is only 2 weeks and 3 days away... I need to finish shopping! Or start... heh.


Picture time!

I don't want to give you a big head, but you are so beautiful.

Go skers!

Anyone want their hair done?

Oh yeah, I'm a vegetarian for sure.

I SO HAPPY

LOL

The eyelashes.

Christmas jammies!

I love you sweet girl! Happy almost 5 months! 

Mama

November 15, 2011

Maci girl,


As of today you are 4 months and 4 days old! Time really does fly... the first 2 weeks of your life are a total blur to me because it was such a big change. But 4 months!!! How did that happen? It's amazing to see how much you've grown so far and how much you have learned. You play with toys now! You actually open your hand and hold the toy and it goes straight to your mouth. You also laugh a lot more now and are starting to get a little sassy! You put your hands in the air and arch your back when you are sitting somewhere and you don't want to be... I can only imagine how hard it's going to be to hold onto you in a few months when you're a lot bigger! You just had your 4 month checkup yesterday and had to get 3 shots. You weigh 14 pounds and are 24 inches long!

The Dr. gave us the green light to start solids, which is super exciting. I'm nervous about it for some reason, but I'm sure you're going to love it!


We went to get your pictures taken with Kade, Kasey and Nani in Kansas City and then stopped to visit Grandma Ruth on the way home. You were such a good girl the entire time we were gone and you had such a pretty smile. I was so proud!

I love them! Now we just have to figure out where we're going to hang them :)

Sneak peek!

Favorite pictures from October

October 28, 2011

Dear Maci,

It's been a while since I've taken the time to write to you, little baby! Your Nana and Papa finally got to see you! They've missed you a lot. I'm sure it's hard for them to be so far away while you're having all of your firsts, but we're going to make up for it during all of our visits. Hopefully we get to see them again over the Holidays.

That's your Grandma Tess holding you. She was there when you were born! We went out to dinner with your Nana and Papa and also your Great Uncle Nick who is only 17 (lol!) and cousin Marissa. Then we went to visit your Great Great Grandma Eva and Great Grandpa Richard. You have so much family, Maci! Nana and Papa couldn't stop talking about the day you are old enough to come down to the lake. Papa is so ready to start spoiling you and take you swimming! I know a lot of your childhood memories will be at the lake. We're going to cook out and hopefully ride on the jetski and the boat and swim all day long. I cannot wait to share that with you.


As of today you are 15 weeks and 4 days old. AKA 3.5 months. Where has the time gone? I can't process the fact that I have a 3.5 month old. You're about to experience your first holiday. Halloween! I have a tutu and tights and pink shoes for you. I think you're going to be a ballerina! Cutest ballerina ever! AND we're finally getting family pictures taken tomorrow. We've had to reschedule several times, but its really going to happen this time! I cant wait, because then we can send out christmas cards! The Holidays are going to be here so soon...

Lately you've started laughing out loud. Not a whole lot, but it's the cutest thing ever when you do! And you looove to take a bath. You kick your feet and turn your head towards the water to try to get it into your mouth. It's soooo funny! I wouldn't think that warm bath water would be very tasty, silly girl. You make us laugh so much. Whenever daddy is holding you on his legs, you kick him so much. He thinks it's funny because you'll hold your foot up like you're warning him, and then you'll just start kicking away. Your legs are never still! I think we're in trouble when you finally start walking...

Over the last few weeks you've finally started sleeping all night. It's been WONDERFUL! I never minded getting up with you during the night, but I'm not gonna lie... sleeping 8 hours straight is one of the best feelings ever. Unfortunately you've started to tease me. Twice this week you've gotten up during the night to eat, and to cry. I wonder if you're going through a growth spurt or something... hopefully it doesn't last long! :)

Well, I have poopy pants to change. I guess I'll end this by saying that I love you and I'm so happy I get to be with you every day while you grow! It may not last much longer (That'll be another post), but I'm going to cherish it while it lasts.


Love,

              Mama

October 11, 2011

Maci,


3 months ago today I met the little girl that changed my life forever. From the second you were born we had "something". Like you were with me all along, just waiting for your time to come into the world and be my little partner. My mini me. I instantly felt like I'd loved you all my life. I didn't sleep for days after you came, and I really didn't care. Everyone kept telling me to get some rest, but all i wanted to do was see my girl. So many people came to visit you in the hospital. We were literally up and visiting from the time we got up until we went to bed it seemed like. It made me feel so good that all of these people wanted to meet you and love you.

When we brought you home, you barely fit in your carseat. Your little head kept falling forward because it didn't fit in the headrest. I didn't even have to adjust the straps. You were just that tiny. Bringing home a new baby is pretty stressful. Everyone says "It became real when I was leaving the hospital, like, where's my owners manual?". It is so true. About an hour after you came home, I was ready to take you to the ER. I had started feeding you and put you on your boppy, which I forgot to wash and when you were done, you had a rash all along the side that you were laying on. I thought for sure that you were going to stop breathing because something was giving you an allergic reaction. Thankfully that didn't happen! I still haven't stopped worrying, and if I'm anything like my mom, I won't ever stop. You probably know that by now!

You've grown and changed so much over the last 3 months, Maci girl. As you can see from the picture, you have a little bit of meat on your bones now! You have the cutest, chubbiest cheeks and super fluffy brown hair, not that you can tell from the top. People can actually hold you now without being afraid of breaking you. You've also started sleeping all night this week, which has been pretty fantastic. You have a new found love for toys. Especially your little bug that we keep on your carseat. You lay there and hold the handle and talk to it and listen to its music, which is super cute. And your smiles. You smile so much now! You've also started to giggle a little bit. When you wake up I like to come in and say "My Maci girl!" and you give me the biggest smile you can muster up. And you never take your eyes off of me. If someone is holding you, you want to be able to see me. I didn't know that would happen so soon! I love that you love me.

Your Papa and Nana are in town from the lake and we're going to dinner with them tonight. Your Nana hasn't gotten to see you since you came home from the hospital. She's going to be so surprised at how much you've grown. I know they hate being so far away from you, so hopefully we get to visit with them a lot while they're here. Then we're leaving Friday morning to go to Nebraska. I want to take you to the Elementary school I used to work at so I can show you off to the kids. And then we're going to dinner and to a haunted house to celebrate the triplets birthday! You and I will stand outside, we're chicken! And then the weekend after that is the annual Pumpkin Carving Party and your first trip to the zoo! I know you won't remember, but I'll take lots of pictures. So we will be in Nebraska a lot this month! Hopefully one day that will be our home. Nebraska is my first love.

So, Princess Maci, I hope your life has been everything you've ever wanted so far. I hope you're loving it as much as I am. I hope you realize how special you are to not only me, but everyone who knows you. And I hope you can feel how much love is around you. You've taught me so much and made me into a better person. I only hope that I can have that affect on you someday, too.

Love,

          Mama

September 30, 2011

Maci,

This is the first letter I've written to you, though I wish I would have started sooner. You're 10 weeks and 4 days old today. I cannot believe how big you've gotten over the last couple of months. I know everyone says this, but it seems like just yesterday that you were born. I remember the very first time I held you. You had your hand on my face the entire time. You obviously didn't know what you were doing, but I like to think you were telling me "relax, I'm here!".

We've been breastfeeding for almost 11 weeks now. That is something that I feel so proud of. I wanted to give up in the beginning, I'll admit it. While we were in the hospital, the Pediatrician suggested we supplement with formula since you were so small and since my milk wouldn't be in for a few days he didn't want you to "starve". (Crock). At first you wouldn't latch, so we used a "nipple shield" so you could eat. We had to put a tiny tube in your mouth and let you suck from that so you'd think you were getting the milk from my boob. Thankfully we only had to do that for the first few days of your life, and then we just used the shield. That thing was a blessing and a curse at the same time. It made it so that you could eat and gain weight, which I'm so thankful for, but after using it for 2 weeks I was so over it that we quit cold turkey. We've been all boobie ever since! You seem to like it, because last Monday when we went to the Doctor you weighed 10 pounds 11 ounces! You're almost double your birth weight, which is such a great feeling!

You've changed so much already, Mace. When you were born you were such a little string bean. You had long skinny legs, and feet that looked like they belonged to a 4 year old. I could also see your neck, but that has been missing for about a month now. You have my eyes, my lips, and my chubby cheeks and your dads dark hair and big feet. You're the perfect combination of the both of us, but we still like to argue over who you look like. You're also 23 inches long now... I think you're going to be tall.

You started smiling the day you turned 6 weeks old. I used to have to earn them, but now you give them out freely, especially in the mornings. You're in the best mood every day when you wake up. You've started cooing at us and laughing in your sleep. I've noticed you make the sounds "guh" and "meh" a lot, so I tell you to say them and when you do everyone thinks you're super talented. You're welcome! You also like to hold onto my fingers and let me pull you up. Every time you grab onto my fingers I can see you straining to pull up yourself, but we're not quite there yet! It's really cute though, and really neat that you already associate holding my fingers with us pulling up. Your little brain is learning already!

You still sleep a lot. Infact, you're asleep on my chest right now. You prefer to sleep on your left side, which is starting to get a little bit flat now. That's how you were laying in my belly, so that's how you're most comfortable! I'm trying to get you to stop, because I really don't want you to have to wear a helmet, but you just turn your little head back to the left every single time. Stubborn like your daddy, too! For a couple of weeks now you've really started to sleep longer stretches, which I'm thankful for! At first you would wake up every 3 to 4 hours to eat, but now it's usually every 5 to 6. It feels so nice to get 6 hours of sleep at a time! I was worried that you were going to come out and hate me and stay up all night screaming, but I think it's exactly the opposite. I feel so blessed. Although you were a complete surprise, I think you were supposed to come when you did. I can't imagine my life without you in it every day. I'm meant to be a mama, and I'm so happy that I get to be your mama.

Goals for October

I've really become one of "those" moms. I wear sweats every day (pretty much because I still don't fit back into my pre pregnancy jeans) and I rarely wear makeup.

SO, since it's the beginning of October, I'm going to set a goal to wear make up every single day of the month. It sounds so silly, but make up really does make me feel better about myself, so I don't know why I don't wear it more often. I don't want to become a slob or someone who doesn't care about her appearance... so there's my goal! Starting tomorrow of course :)

I also want to get her room alll set up at my moms house. We've already painted, we just need to do the last coat on the mini wall and put her crib back together. Moving with a baby is a lot more work than I thought it'd be! She has so many clothes I don't know what to do with all of them! I'm packing a lot of her stuff away to put in storage for our future babies if we happen to have another little lady.


My girl is sick with her very first cold. I feel so bad for her. I've been making sure to give her extra snuggles through out the day <3 I hate seeing her like this!


Time to feed! Happy Monday!

Brand new

Ahhh, my very first blog post. I'm kind of nervous... I'm not really the type of person to spill my guts and let everyone I know read it. But, this isn't about me. This is about my Maci girl. Ever since she was born I feel like we've been going nonstop. There's always something to do, someone to see, or something to remember (which I forget to remember 5 minutes later). We also have a lot of out of town family members that don't get to see her very often, so I thought I'd make this page for those people that would like to keep up with us!

The main reason for this page though is for Maci to hopefully read one day. I want her to be able to look back at all of the pictures we took and all of the adventures we will go on. I also want to be able to look back and remember all of the little things about her, like how she smiles great big when I yawn or how she gets so worked up while she's trying to talk that she gags herself (haha). I want to write her letters and tell her stories so that she can look back on these times in her life and know how her childhood was. I never want to forget how she was at this age, or any age for that matter, like so many people say they do.

I honestly never thought in a million years that motherhood would be so beautiful. I never expected to look at someone and feel so much, so fast. She has blessed my life so much in the short time that she's been here. From waking up every morning to a string of great big gummy smiles, to the new outlook I have on basically everything around me. She's so perfect in every way and I love knowing that I get to watch her and help her grow into the amazing little girl and woman that she will be one day.


I hope you enjoy!