I'm really failing at keeping up with this blog. A part of me thinks I should just start writing letters since that'd be more personal.. but then I hate to lose everything I've written so far! I didn't even write you on your first birthday... that makes me sad.
You are 13 months old today, pretty girl. That makes you seem so much older for some reason. This is the best age so far. Every stage we go through is my favorite at the time though. You learned to walk on May 19th, 2012. We were playing on the living room floor and I kept putting you infront of me and letting go and when you'd walk to me I'd throw you up in the air. I guess you liked it, because you kept doing it... and from then on you were walking! You were just over 10 months old. You were such a tiny thing, so it was funny to see you walking around. You still are, actually. Everyone thinks you're younger than you are. At your first birthday checkup you weighed 19.6 pounds and were 28 inches long. You cannot fit into 12 month clothes. You're 13 months and still wear mostly 9 month clothes and can sometimes fit into 6. You're just a tiny girl!
As for words, you don't say a whole lot, but you jabber ALL the time. If you talk later as much as you jabber now, we're in trouble! ;) you say mama, dada, nana, ow, ball, bella, byebye and nini for night night, and sometimes hi. I'm sure there are more that I'm not thinking of. You just started saying ow today. Whenever you touch us we jump and say "ow" like you're hurting us, so no you do it, too. It's pretty sweet. You're such an ornery little girl, but it's fitting. You always want to stand on my laptop... you do it every chance you get. So I put it under the bed and you stretch your leg as far as you can just so you can touch it with your toes. Or you stick your finger up your nose constantly haha. You're always making us laugh.
You and I are getting ready to move, yay!!! We're moving in with my friend Brittany and her daughter. We're just going to be a few minutes from your grandmas though, so that makes it easier. I'm excited to have a place for all of our stuff... we're a little smushed right now. Uncle Rod and his family moved in recently.. so this isn't working out anymore. Otherwise we would have stayed here for a while longer. Sigh.
We had you in a baby contest this last weekend for the fair in DeKalb. It was just something silly to do, I didn't care if you won or not... until you didn't win ;) that's okay you weren't the only one. And I think it was rigged, haha. You'll probably be in the baby contest for the South Side Fall Festival next month. We've got a busy month coming up. Moving on the 1st, SSFF soon after that, Marcy's wedding after that... and then Fall will be coming and we will go to the pumpkin patch and watch scary movies and trick or treat :) I love having a kid, it makes everything fun again.
Anyway, you're starting to wake up, so I'm going to end this for now. I'll upload pictures when I get a minute. Love you! :)
Mama
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I've noticed that since you've become mobile, you don't cuddle nearly as much as you used to. So I'm taking this chance to snuggle while you sleep on my chest like you used to. I couldn't tell you the last time I got to hold you like this. You used to sleep on my chest every day. My baby is growing up. You're 10 months old now and we're starting to plan your first birthday party. I just can't believe how fast this year has gone. Everyone told me it would, but you don't realize how fast until you're experiencing parenthood for yourself.
My very first Mother's Day was this weekend, and it felt even better than I thought it would. It made me think about everything we've been through so far and made me so proud of us. You taught me how to be a mother these last ten months and I like to believe that I'm doing a pretty good job at it. I hope you agree. I just want you to know that I'm trying my absolute best. Some things may not be going as planned, but I'm going to work it out and make it better for you.
Lately I keep thinking back to the day after I found out I was having a little girl. I'll never forget that feeling. Something in me changed that day. I wasn't just going to be a mom, but I was going to be a mom of a sweet little girl. I just remember sitting in bed all morning, crying because I was so happy. It was amazing to feel you kick and think to myself "My little GIRL is kicking" and not just "the baby" or "he or she". You had a bit of a personality from that point on. I made a CD of songs about motherhood/parenthood/having a baby girl and I listened and cried to them up until the day you were born, haha. I still do sometimes... it's a great reminder of what I used to feel and how much my life has changed since you were born.
I just want you to know that I wouldn't trade you for the world. You are the reason I wake up every day and the reason I go to bed happy every night and I pray that I can give you everything you deserve. I love you so much.
My very first Mother's Day was this weekend, and it felt even better than I thought it would. It made me think about everything we've been through so far and made me so proud of us. You taught me how to be a mother these last ten months and I like to believe that I'm doing a pretty good job at it. I hope you agree. I just want you to know that I'm trying my absolute best. Some things may not be going as planned, but I'm going to work it out and make it better for you.
Lately I keep thinking back to the day after I found out I was having a little girl. I'll never forget that feeling. Something in me changed that day. I wasn't just going to be a mom, but I was going to be a mom of a sweet little girl. I just remember sitting in bed all morning, crying because I was so happy. It was amazing to feel you kick and think to myself "My little GIRL is kicking" and not just "the baby" or "he or she". You had a bit of a personality from that point on. I made a CD of songs about motherhood/parenthood/having a baby girl and I listened and cried to them up until the day you were born, haha. I still do sometimes... it's a great reminder of what I used to feel and how much my life has changed since you were born.
I just want you to know that I wouldn't trade you for the world. You are the reason I wake up every day and the reason I go to bed happy every night and I pray that I can give you everything you deserve. I love you so much.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Wow, where have the last two months gone? It was my goal to write at least once a week, and as you can see, that did not happen. After my last post on February 21st, life just kind of got away from us all. I'll tell you why.
The day you hurt your hand, your Grandpa Richard went into the hospital. He thought he had a stroke because he could hardly make sentences and couldn't use his right hand. Turns out though that he had stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his brain. Your Papa Phil and Nana Val came to town to be with the family then, so everything was kind of hectic. We were either visiting Grandpa Richard at the hospital or nursing home or visiting with Grandma Eva and Papa and Nana at Eva's house. Three weeks to the day that he was diagnosed was when he passed away. It breaks my heart thinking about it because he always said he just wanted to live long enough to see you walk. He almost made it though... he loved you so much, I know that much. Everywhere he went he'd take your pictures and show people. He was a funny guy... I wish you'd gotten to see him a little more.
Shortly after, Eva had to be put into a nursing home because she couldn't take care of herself. She's 96 I believe? I could be wrong... I'll have to ask your dad, but she's somewhere around there. So we try to go visit her at least once a week. She loves seeing you so much and you love her too. Every time you see her you wave like crazy. I know it makes her day.
I also started college in March, so that added to the craziness. I'm taking English, Math and Geography. I've always HATED math, but I'm not doing too bad! I have a high B in the class right now, which I'm very happy with. English is alright, lots of writing papers, and Geography is terrible. I've got a C, OOPS! I really need to step it up. It's just hard to manage my time between the classes and homework and my baby who needs lots of attention! :) I've been staying up until 2am most nights just to finish my homework. My first semester is almost done though, so I'm pretty excited about that.
Now about you! First off, you learned to crawl around the beginning of March. You used to crawl backwards, but for a few months now it's been forwards and you're into everything! You pull up on things, too. And now you're starting to stand by yourself in the middle of the room. This last weekend we went to Nebraska and you took FIVE steps all by yourself. You won't do it now though, so everyone thinks I'm making it up, haha. You've also started throwing tantrums. I really didn't know it started this early... the Parents as Teachers lady says it's because of your personality. I think you're going to be the independent type and not want help from anyone... that's what I'm seeing at least.
This last month you've started copying. You playing peek a boo with a blanket, make funny faces with your lips and try to make noises with your tongue if we do it to you. Yesterday I was vacuuming and you put your hands over your ears... I don't know if it was on purpose or not, but it was pretty cute. Your hair is really growing in, too. Not quite enough for a clip, but it's getting there! You started teething again this last week, you already have two bottom teeth, and now I think you're working on the top. Your fever was almost 102 degrees, which kind of freaked me out. And yesterday you just kept chewing on everything and yelling. It broke my heart, I hate to think of you in pain... so hopefully they come through pretty soon! I'll let you know when :)
You just woke up from your nap, so I better run... I'll update more soon! Love you so much!
Mama
The day you hurt your hand, your Grandpa Richard went into the hospital. He thought he had a stroke because he could hardly make sentences and couldn't use his right hand. Turns out though that he had stage 4 lung cancer that had spread to his brain. Your Papa Phil and Nana Val came to town to be with the family then, so everything was kind of hectic. We were either visiting Grandpa Richard at the hospital or nursing home or visiting with Grandma Eva and Papa and Nana at Eva's house. Three weeks to the day that he was diagnosed was when he passed away. It breaks my heart thinking about it because he always said he just wanted to live long enough to see you walk. He almost made it though... he loved you so much, I know that much. Everywhere he went he'd take your pictures and show people. He was a funny guy... I wish you'd gotten to see him a little more.
Shortly after, Eva had to be put into a nursing home because she couldn't take care of herself. She's 96 I believe? I could be wrong... I'll have to ask your dad, but she's somewhere around there. So we try to go visit her at least once a week. She loves seeing you so much and you love her too. Every time you see her you wave like crazy. I know it makes her day.
I also started college in March, so that added to the craziness. I'm taking English, Math and Geography. I've always HATED math, but I'm not doing too bad! I have a high B in the class right now, which I'm very happy with. English is alright, lots of writing papers, and Geography is terrible. I've got a C, OOPS! I really need to step it up. It's just hard to manage my time between the classes and homework and my baby who needs lots of attention! :) I've been staying up until 2am most nights just to finish my homework. My first semester is almost done though, so I'm pretty excited about that.
Now about you! First off, you learned to crawl around the beginning of March. You used to crawl backwards, but for a few months now it's been forwards and you're into everything! You pull up on things, too. And now you're starting to stand by yourself in the middle of the room. This last weekend we went to Nebraska and you took FIVE steps all by yourself. You won't do it now though, so everyone thinks I'm making it up, haha. You've also started throwing tantrums. I really didn't know it started this early... the Parents as Teachers lady says it's because of your personality. I think you're going to be the independent type and not want help from anyone... that's what I'm seeing at least.
This last month you've started copying. You playing peek a boo with a blanket, make funny faces with your lips and try to make noises with your tongue if we do it to you. Yesterday I was vacuuming and you put your hands over your ears... I don't know if it was on purpose or not, but it was pretty cute. Your hair is really growing in, too. Not quite enough for a clip, but it's getting there! You started teething again this last week, you already have two bottom teeth, and now I think you're working on the top. Your fever was almost 102 degrees, which kind of freaked me out. And yesterday you just kept chewing on everything and yelling. It broke my heart, I hate to think of you in pain... so hopefully they come through pretty soon! I'll let you know when :)
You just woke up from your nap, so I better run... I'll update more soon! Love you so much!
Mama
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Trip to the ER
Maci,
How do you feel about lasagna for dinner? I told myself last night that I'd never eat it again. Your first run in with the cheesy, meaty, tomatoey dish was not a good one. I was holding you while I had the bright idea to make your dads dinner plate and when I plopped that food on the plate, you shoved your hand right in the middle of it. Hot, right out of the oven. I keep replaying it in my head and thinking of all of the things that I could have done differently.
1) Why was I holding you in the first place around hot food?
2) Why didn't I just drop the plate when I saw you going for it?
Unfortunately my brain didn't react that fast. I see it happening over and over again in my head in slow motion and I wish I could have a do over. Last night was easily the worst night of my life. Right when it happened I grabbed your hand and tried to get as much of the sauce off as I could. I knew what was happening. It was burning my hand just trying to get it off of you, so I can't imagine how you were feeling. I held your little hand under the cold water while your grandma called the nurses hotline. It makes me sick just thinking about it.
You were shaking and writhing in pain. I had a cold wash cloth for you to hold onto and you were sucking on it and screaming at the same time. We drove you to the ER and thankfully they gave you pain medicine and wrapped your little hand up. They said it was a 2nd degree burn and that it would heal just fine, but it still doesn't take away the pain. Your pain or mine. It was heartbreaking listening to your screams for over an hour, knowing that I couldn't take the pain away. Knowing that it was my fault.
I just had to change your bandage for the 2nd time today. You have been such a big girl. You don't scream or cry, you just sit there and let me do what I need to do. And thank God for your Grammy. I don't know what I would have done without her help. A girl always needs her mom...
I love you so much and I'm so sorry you had to go through this... I'm just glad you won't remember the pain, because I know how bad burns hurt even after the fact. Bubble wrap anyone?
Love you,
Mama
How do you feel about lasagna for dinner? I told myself last night that I'd never eat it again. Your first run in with the cheesy, meaty, tomatoey dish was not a good one. I was holding you while I had the bright idea to make your dads dinner plate and when I plopped that food on the plate, you shoved your hand right in the middle of it. Hot, right out of the oven. I keep replaying it in my head and thinking of all of the things that I could have done differently.
1) Why was I holding you in the first place around hot food?
2) Why didn't I just drop the plate when I saw you going for it?
Unfortunately my brain didn't react that fast. I see it happening over and over again in my head in slow motion and I wish I could have a do over. Last night was easily the worst night of my life. Right when it happened I grabbed your hand and tried to get as much of the sauce off as I could. I knew what was happening. It was burning my hand just trying to get it off of you, so I can't imagine how you were feeling. I held your little hand under the cold water while your grandma called the nurses hotline. It makes me sick just thinking about it.
You were shaking and writhing in pain. I had a cold wash cloth for you to hold onto and you were sucking on it and screaming at the same time. We drove you to the ER and thankfully they gave you pain medicine and wrapped your little hand up. They said it was a 2nd degree burn and that it would heal just fine, but it still doesn't take away the pain. Your pain or mine. It was heartbreaking listening to your screams for over an hour, knowing that I couldn't take the pain away. Knowing that it was my fault.
I just had to change your bandage for the 2nd time today. You have been such a big girl. You don't scream or cry, you just sit there and let me do what I need to do. And thank God for your Grammy. I don't know what I would have done without her help. A girl always needs her mom...
I love you so much and I'm so sorry you had to go through this... I'm just glad you won't remember the pain, because I know how bad burns hurt even after the fact. Bubble wrap anyone?
Love you,
Mama
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Big Girl!
Dear Baby Maci,
I'm not doing a very good job at keeping up with these letters to you. I think I'm going to make a late new years resolution to start writing at least once a week ;). I don't want to forget anything, and that's exactly what's going to happen if I only write every few months.
It's February now and you're changing so much every single day. Last time I wrote, you had just started babbling... and now you say "mama" and "dada" and you're working on "nana", too! On January 20th you FINALLY rolled over from your back to your belly. I was watching Dolphin Tale and you were playing on the floor and when I looked down you were AAAALMOST there. You finally ended up doing it and played on your stomach for a while. I couldn't take my eyes off of you for fear that you were going to do something I hadn't seen before. I felt so proud! You actually got up on your hands and knees that day, too. From then on I feel like you've done something new every day. You also sit up by yourself perfectly. I used to be able to sit you down on the floor with toys and walk away, and now when I sit you down you instantly start trying to get on your hands and knees. And then you get mad because you aren't sure what to do next, so I have to put you back on your bottom and we do it all over again!
You also learned how to wave recently! We'll tell you "say byebye!" and you flap your arm up and down like it's the heaviest thing in the world. And yesterday you started doing it with your fingers, but only to Grandma Betty. You love her! I'm glad because she's a very special lady! I think you make her day when you give her special attention.
Your hair is starting to grow in finally! And your eyes keep changing colors... one day they'll be blue, then green, then brown... I can't wait to see what color they're going to be. Your eyelashes are also getting longer. I watch you when you sleep and they just look so beautiful laying there on your little face. Did I mention you have an attitude? I wonder where you get that from... :) Ive started giving you lots of new foods lately since you're becoming such a big girl. You love mashed potatoes, cottage cheese, string cheese, pasta, peaches, crackers. You aren't sure about the jars of veggies but hopefully that changes with time! Valentine's Day was this week. I painted your fed red and TRIED to make your daddy a valentine... it was such a mess! A good memory though for sure :)
I think were going to try switching you to your crib soon. You used to sleep through the night, but now you are in our bed 80% of the night. I love sleeping with you, but there is not enough room in our bed!
I'm about to start school online soon so for now I do not work. We don't go to Kade's house anymore, we get to stay home with each other now and cook and clean and I love every second of it! I'm so blessed to be able to stay home with you right now. I'm not sure how long it's going to last, but I love every day.
This is kind of random, but I wanted to write and say that Whitney Houston died last week and I'm watching her funeral right now. She was an amazing singer and I'm sure as you grow up you'll hear her music so I thought it'd be neat to look back and see when I wrote about it. That is all :)
Do we have a date for next week? We will see! I'll try my best.
Love you,
Mama
I'm not doing a very good job at keeping up with these letters to you. I think I'm going to make a late new years resolution to start writing at least once a week ;). I don't want to forget anything, and that's exactly what's going to happen if I only write every few months.
It's February now and you're changing so much every single day. Last time I wrote, you had just started babbling... and now you say "mama" and "dada" and you're working on "nana", too! On January 20th you FINALLY rolled over from your back to your belly. I was watching Dolphin Tale and you were playing on the floor and when I looked down you were AAAALMOST there. You finally ended up doing it and played on your stomach for a while. I couldn't take my eyes off of you for fear that you were going to do something I hadn't seen before. I felt so proud! You actually got up on your hands and knees that day, too. From then on I feel like you've done something new every day. You also sit up by yourself perfectly. I used to be able to sit you down on the floor with toys and walk away, and now when I sit you down you instantly start trying to get on your hands and knees. And then you get mad because you aren't sure what to do next, so I have to put you back on your bottom and we do it all over again!
You also learned how to wave recently! We'll tell you "say byebye!" and you flap your arm up and down like it's the heaviest thing in the world. And yesterday you started doing it with your fingers, but only to Grandma Betty. You love her! I'm glad because she's a very special lady! I think you make her day when you give her special attention.
Your hair is starting to grow in finally! And your eyes keep changing colors... one day they'll be blue, then green, then brown... I can't wait to see what color they're going to be. Your eyelashes are also getting longer. I watch you when you sleep and they just look so beautiful laying there on your little face. Did I mention you have an attitude? I wonder where you get that from... :) Ive started giving you lots of new foods lately since you're becoming such a big girl. You love mashed potatoes, cottage cheese, string cheese, pasta, peaches, crackers. You aren't sure about the jars of veggies but hopefully that changes with time! Valentine's Day was this week. I painted your fed red and TRIED to make your daddy a valentine... it was such a mess! A good memory though for sure :)
I think were going to try switching you to your crib soon. You used to sleep through the night, but now you are in our bed 80% of the night. I love sleeping with you, but there is not enough room in our bed!
I'm about to start school online soon so for now I do not work. We don't go to Kade's house anymore, we get to stay home with each other now and cook and clean and I love every second of it! I'm so blessed to be able to stay home with you right now. I'm not sure how long it's going to last, but I love every day.
This is kind of random, but I wanted to write and say that Whitney Houston died last week and I'm watching her funeral right now. She was an amazing singer and I'm sure as you grow up you'll hear her music so I thought it'd be neat to look back and see when I wrote about it. That is all :)
Do we have a date for next week? We will see! I'll try my best.
Love you,
Mama
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
The end of a great year!
Maci,
December was a big month for you. We had lots of firsts! You had your first sleep over at our house with your cousins, Karli and Abby. While they were here we baked cookies and put up the Christmas tree and went to see Christmas lights. You stayed home for that though because you were already asleep. Then we took a road trip to the Lake to see your Nana and Papa! They were so excited to see you. It was a 6 hour long car ride (thanks, Dad & bad GPS directions!) but we did just fine! When we got there we got to exchange Christmas gifts and spend some much needed time with your grand parents. They hadn't seen us since October, and when you're as little as you are I think that is far too long.
We slept in the loft upstairs, which is kind of scary. It's so beautiful though. If you sit up in the bed you can look out at the Lake and see the water moving... it's such a nice thing to wake up to. Too bad it isn't closer, because I'd seriously consider moving there if it was. You were not a happy camper though. You woke up at least 4 times both nights... you had mommy dragging! We managed though :) we just napped the next day. It was so nice to be able to drop everything and just relax all weekend. We did go shopping and you got a new fuzzy coat with ears on the hood from the Carters outlet. We stopped for a pretzel and your Papa and daddy were feeding the birds. It was cute, but I wasn't sharing mine, haha.
That trip really opened my eyes. For the last 5 months I've been so afraid to do anything or go anywhere for fear of you crying or something, but making that car ride and having such a great time at the lake really showed me that if we can do that, we can do anything! So the next weekend (Christmas weekend) we went to church! It was nice to show you off ;) you were a little fussy, but fell asleep and did just fine! That was on your first Christmas! You sat on my lap and we all opened presents together. You got a new ducky bath tub and bath toys, a Jenny jump up and a cubby shelf to complete your nursery. You also got some clothes and a necklace that goes with your Great Grandmas necklace. We didn't do much else on Christmas, but we did get the chance to go visit your other grand parents. It was nice because we don't make enough time to see them much either. We need to work on that... we want you to be close to your family!
Last weekend we went to Nebraska for New Years! We got to see your cousin Allie. She's 7 months now and is crawling and pulling up on things. You don't do that stuff yet, but you have started sitting up mostly by yourself! You both are getting so big! I'm going to be in some trouble when you start doing those things, I think! Then we went to Marcy and Matt's house. We had dinner with them and you got to meet Marcy's baby nephew, Micah. We told you that you were going to be his prom date... I hope that's okay. :)
I think it was a great month, lots of family and friends! Now it is 2012 and I'm so excited to see what this year has in store for us! So far this year (and it's only the 3rd of January!) you've starting baby talking. It sounds like you say "blah blah blah blah" all the time and I really think "dada" will come soon. You have also started blowing raspberries. It's so cute and so weird since you weren't doing this on Saturday, but Sunday (Jan 1st) on the ride home from Nebraska you started! It was like the flip of a switch. And yesterday, January 2nd, you were lying on your belly and pushed up with your arms and were on your toes, like a pushup. We will have to wait and see what comes next :)
Sorry, picture overload. Love you!
December was a big month for you. We had lots of firsts! You had your first sleep over at our house with your cousins, Karli and Abby. While they were here we baked cookies and put up the Christmas tree and went to see Christmas lights. You stayed home for that though because you were already asleep. Then we took a road trip to the Lake to see your Nana and Papa! They were so excited to see you. It was a 6 hour long car ride (thanks, Dad & bad GPS directions!) but we did just fine! When we got there we got to exchange Christmas gifts and spend some much needed time with your grand parents. They hadn't seen us since October, and when you're as little as you are I think that is far too long.
We slept in the loft upstairs, which is kind of scary. It's so beautiful though. If you sit up in the bed you can look out at the Lake and see the water moving... it's such a nice thing to wake up to. Too bad it isn't closer, because I'd seriously consider moving there if it was. You were not a happy camper though. You woke up at least 4 times both nights... you had mommy dragging! We managed though :) we just napped the next day. It was so nice to be able to drop everything and just relax all weekend. We did go shopping and you got a new fuzzy coat with ears on the hood from the Carters outlet. We stopped for a pretzel and your Papa and daddy were feeding the birds. It was cute, but I wasn't sharing mine, haha.
That trip really opened my eyes. For the last 5 months I've been so afraid to do anything or go anywhere for fear of you crying or something, but making that car ride and having such a great time at the lake really showed me that if we can do that, we can do anything! So the next weekend (Christmas weekend) we went to church! It was nice to show you off ;) you were a little fussy, but fell asleep and did just fine! That was on your first Christmas! You sat on my lap and we all opened presents together. You got a new ducky bath tub and bath toys, a Jenny jump up and a cubby shelf to complete your nursery. You also got some clothes and a necklace that goes with your Great Grandmas necklace. We didn't do much else on Christmas, but we did get the chance to go visit your other grand parents. It was nice because we don't make enough time to see them much either. We need to work on that... we want you to be close to your family!
Last weekend we went to Nebraska for New Years! We got to see your cousin Allie. She's 7 months now and is crawling and pulling up on things. You don't do that stuff yet, but you have started sitting up mostly by yourself! You both are getting so big! I'm going to be in some trouble when you start doing those things, I think! Then we went to Marcy and Matt's house. We had dinner with them and you got to meet Marcy's baby nephew, Micah. We told you that you were going to be his prom date... I hope that's okay. :)
I think it was a great month, lots of family and friends! Now it is 2012 and I'm so excited to see what this year has in store for us! So far this year (and it's only the 3rd of January!) you've starting baby talking. It sounds like you say "blah blah blah blah" all the time and I really think "dada" will come soon. You have also started blowing raspberries. It's so cute and so weird since you weren't doing this on Saturday, but Sunday (Jan 1st) on the ride home from Nebraska you started! It was like the flip of a switch. And yesterday, January 2nd, you were lying on your belly and pushed up with your arms and were on your toes, like a pushup. We will have to wait and see what comes next :)
Sorry, picture overload. Love you!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
December 7, 2011
Little Maci,
This picture is hanging on our fridge. It has been hanging there for exactly one year and I'm still amazed at the fact that this was you. A little blob swimming around in my stomach at 7 weeks old. I couldn't see eyes or arms and legs, but I did see your heartbeat. And today, I held you as you looked in the mirror at your reflection and I felt your little heartbeat under my hand. It's the most beautiful feeling in the world. So tiny and fast.
And now you have chubby little cheeks that I kiss every single day, and rolls on your thighs that I like to tickle. And when you're eating you use your tiny little hands to play with my face. You rub my cheeks and hold my chin and you sometimes pull my hair, but it still melts my heart... even if it does hurt. I LOVE that you've started to acknowledge that I'm there while you're eating. You'll be 5 months old in just 3 short days and I know that I say this every single time, but HOW? I was seriously just pregnant. I remember the day of your birth like it was yesterday (although the birth itself is a little foggy). I remember throwing up every day and peeing my pants for the 135th time. I remember taking that test and feeling like I was going to fall off the toilet when it turned positive before I even had a chance to pull my pants up. I just don't see how time can go so fast. Before you were here it seemed like time was just dragging on... and now I don't feel like I can keep up and the days are flying and I JUST WANT IT TO SLOW DOWN!!! I don't want my little girl to be 5 months old already. I just want you to stay this age for a long long time so that I can lay in bed and play with you and listen to you babble forever. I'm begging you!
Alright, I'll stop... time for what you are doing this month and some pictures!
As of now you are not rolling over. You only allow me to put you on your belly for 5 minutes, tops. BUT you are starting to move your legs when you're doing there which makes me think you'll be there in no time. I think I might pee my pants the first time you actually do it. You're also doing really well at sitting up while assisted. You do a great job for the first few seconds and then you fall forward and look like a taco. A cute taco, I might add. I already mentioned what you do with my face while you are eating... that very well could be my most favorite thing you've ever done, aside from smiling. You're laughing like crazy, and you are madly in love with your daddy. I can tell that I am already in trouble. He doesn't even have to say anything to you and you smile at him and start talking. I thought you were a Mommy's girl!!! That's okay, you don't get to see him much, so I love that when you are with him you show him how much you love him.
I don't have weight right now but I can try to weigh you when we get home. Last month though you were 14 pounds! Your first Thanksgiving was great. We had family over at our house that we haven't seen in a few years and you did amazing for not napping much at all that day. And then that weekend we went to Nebraska to see the rest of the family. Unfortunately we didn't remember to snap a picture of you with your cousins Addison and Allie which I'm so mad about!!! We will have to get one at Christmas. Which, by the way is only 2 weeks and 3 days away... I need to finish shopping! Or start... heh.
Picture time!
I don't want to give you a big head, but you are so beautiful.
Go skers!
Anyone want their hair done?
Oh yeah, I'm a vegetarian for sure.
I SO HAPPY
LOL
The eyelashes.
Christmas jammies!
I love you sweet girl! Happy almost 5 months!
Mama
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