Letters to Maci: December 2011

Little Maci,

This picture is hanging on our fridge. It has been hanging there for exactly one year and I'm still amazed at the fact that this was you. A little blob swimming around in my stomach at 7 weeks old. I couldn't see eyes or arms and legs, but I did see your heartbeat. And today, I held you as you looked in the mirror at your reflection and I felt your little heartbeat under my hand. It's the most beautiful feeling in the world. So tiny and fast.

And now you have chubby little cheeks that I kiss every single day, and rolls on your thighs that I like to tickle. And when you're eating you use your tiny little hands to play with my face. You rub my cheeks and hold my chin and you sometimes pull my hair, but it still melts my heart... even if it does hurt. I LOVE that you've started to acknowledge that I'm there while you're eating. You'll be 5 months old in just 3 short days and I know that I say this every single time, but HOW? I was seriously just pregnant. I remember the day of your birth like it was yesterday (although the birth itself is a little foggy). I remember throwing up every day and peeing my pants for the 135th time. I remember taking that test and feeling like I was going to fall off the toilet when it turned positive before I even had a chance to pull my pants up. I just don't see how time can go so fast. Before you were here it seemed like time was just dragging on... and now I don't feel like I can keep up and the days are flying and I JUST WANT IT TO SLOW DOWN!!! I don't want my little girl to be 5 months old already. I just want you to stay this age for a long long time so that I can lay in bed and play with you and listen to you babble forever. I'm begging you!

Alright, I'll stop... time for what you are doing this month and some pictures!

As of now you are not rolling over. You only allow me to put you on your belly for 5 minutes, tops. BUT you are starting to move your legs when you're doing there which makes me think you'll be there in no time. I think I might pee my pants the first time you actually do it. You're also doing really well at sitting up while assisted. You do a great job for the first few seconds and then you fall forward and look like a taco. A cute taco, I might add. I already mentioned what you do with my face while you are eating... that very well could be my most favorite thing you've ever done, aside from smiling. You're laughing like crazy, and you are madly in love with your daddy. I can tell that I am already in trouble. He doesn't even have to say anything to you and you smile at him and start talking. I thought you were a Mommy's girl!!! That's okay, you don't get to see him much, so I love that when you are with him you show him how much you love him.

I don't have weight right now but I can try to weigh you when we get home. Last month though you were 14 pounds! Your first Thanksgiving was great. We had family over at our house that we haven't seen in a few years and you did amazing for not napping much at all that day. And then that weekend we went to Nebraska to see the rest of the family. Unfortunately we didn't remember to snap a picture of you with your cousins Addison and Allie which I'm so mad about!!! We will have to get one at Christmas. Which, by the way is only 2 weeks and 3 days away... I need to finish shopping! Or start... heh.

Picture time!