I've noticed that since you've become mobile, you don't cuddle nearly as much as you used to. So I'm taking this chance to snuggle while you sleep on my chest like you used to. I couldn't tell you the last time I got to hold you like this. You used to sleep on my chest every day. My baby is growing up. You're 10 months old now and we're starting to plan your first birthday party. I just can't believe how fast this year has gone. Everyone told me it would, but you don't realize how fast until you're experiencing parenthood for yourself.

My very first Mother's Day was this weekend, and it felt even better than I thought it would. It made me think about everything we've been through so far and made me so proud of us. You taught me how to be a mother these last ten months and I like to believe that I'm doing a pretty good job at it. I hope you agree. I just want you to know that I'm trying my absolute best. Some things may not be going as planned, but I'm going to work it out and make it better for you.

Lately I keep thinking back to the day after I found out I was having a little girl. I'll never forget that feeling. Something in me changed that day. I wasn't just going to be a mom, but I was going to be a mom of a sweet little girl. I just remember sitting in bed all morning, crying because I was so happy. It was amazing to feel you kick and think to myself "My little GIRL is kicking" and not just "the baby" or "he or she". You had a bit of a personality from that point on. I made a CD of songs about motherhood/parenthood/having a baby girl and I listened and cried to them up until the day you were born, haha. I still do sometimes... it's a great reminder of what I used to feel and how much my life has changed since you were born.

I just want you to know that I wouldn't trade you for the world. You are the reason I wake up every day and the reason I go to bed happy every night and I pray that I can give you everything you deserve. I love you so much.